Another boring day in the life misrebeles that is mine. Have been grounded since 2 days after xmas, not sure if i mentioned it b4, well it involved me a few frineds, a pub nd wlkn bak to one of said friends houses at half one in the morning. Dad was not pleased so have been grounded since, excluding new years obviously lol. But have been stuck at home for the last few days and i think im starting to go mad with Cabin fever!!! mum is on one of her usual emotional days were no-1 in this house is suffering like her and o woe is her she has such a miserabl life. Get over it I say, like I dont have enough to deal with being a teenager, about to sit her mocks, no relative bf and also, incase u didnt get it b4, GROUNDED! last thing i need is one of her little breakdowns if u can even call them that, she just sits on the computer talking to her old skwl friends in her pj's not drinking anything but black coffee so she gets a sore throat and ordering me and my sister to do stuff for her. For example our dishwasher broke down yesterday so she asked my sis to wash everything by hand which she did, then this morning she asked us to dry everything and then peel the veg for her dinner. I thought ok i can help i don't mind but i went into her and asked her wot she was doing ' updating her xmas card list on the computer' was her answer So in protest i refused to do any work and do sum english studying for my mocks. Thing is i don't mind helping out but she didnt do anything all day! no cleaning, no shopping ( fridge is sehr bare) actually she did make me and my sis a bagel for brekfast but that was it. She is stil walking around in her pj's, dressing gown and greasy sleep-sculpted hair, no wonder my dad has been working late, i wouldnt want to come back to that from work. Wish the would just hurry up n break up or sumthing, ino that sounds really bad but i honestly cant see what they see in eachother, they barely talk let alone show any affection so i just don't understand it, and my dad looks good for his age. Also ex bf who i will call 'J' has been giving me greif again. He wanted to cum ova so last nyt i said f9 cz we myt b getting bak 2geva, but this mrnin i txt him saying sorry its not a good time right now (with the hole atmosphere with mum) but he just got in a huge stress. Grrrr like theres not enuf drama already, like i need him to get all up in my face. I hope my parents realise that as soon as exams are over i'm going out and getting trashed after being a prisoner at home. They have no1 to blame but themselves to be honest. Really they should take a look at their own lives before they start punishing me for the way I live mine cz other than this small incident, its not all that bad. Getting good grades at skwl, got my whole future sorted out, one of the popular gurls at my skwl with an awesum group of m8z, its not like im a waster or a dropout. Like i said, maybe they should analyse themselves before punishing me for how i choose to live.  So is the life of the teenage girl, will probs write more 2moro, though i doubt much will have changed if im still under incarseration. Mum will still be wallowing in self pity, with no sympathy for mine or my sisters vision. Won't see dad till late because of his working hours, and I will still be siting here writing it all down for everyone to read. so if you have taken the time to actually read this, ur either agreeing or thinking u've wasted about 10 mins of your day. Thnx for reading anyways for wteva reason tho lol much love, *Star baby out* xxx

Well basically, me and mr. almost didnt work owt. We were such close m8z b4 the whole thing started and because I didnt see very much of him over xmas and new years, he said that this hole thing felt weird to him and he didnt want anything to happen any more. At the time I was angry and upset, and then i realise if he's putting our friendship b4 tryna get his leg ova, then thats a gd thing, and he has definitly been trying harder in these last few days on our friendship than eva b4. As he put it he gave up me for...well me! lol which is a nicer way of putting it if u ask me lol So any other girls going through it just remeber : ** Don't cry because its over, smile because it happened ** And also another good point is that the only person who told me not to go for it because he would hurt me is my kinda ex best m8, we'll call her M. Anyways me and Mm kinda drifted apart but because nun of my new group of m8z were onlyn to talk 2 i ended up talkin 2 her. She was gr8 and helped me throught it and made me see How much potential i have if i put myself out there a bit more and gain a bit more self cnfidence, which is sumthin i really dont have sumtyms, and in different situations. Anyways now because of that we've become so much closer and have startd msn'ing more and txtn more which is gr8! lol btw if your wonderin about G then i can say that thats still the same. I think we'll always b m8z but we just liked to have a little flirt with eachother to let off steam, so yer no change, were stil ok lol To be honest i think i've kinda been puting myself down boy wise, well according to M anyways lol I'v been thinkin that im not good enuf so im letin boys get away wif wteva they want which isnt ryt, but now i c wt she was on about, and i guess she's ryt. mainly cz she used 2 b the same way, then she met her current squeeze, D, and they bin 2geva 6 munths all because she changed her attitude round which is kinda wt i need 2 do. and she's a water sign too so were both emotional and trusting people, which kinda helps me more to think that if she can do it, so can i. Wish me luck!

Wow me and mr.almost spent the entire day 2gether 2day and it was so0o gr8 lol. I feel like we've just got so close and i rele hope something goods gna cum outa it, i havnt bin abl 2 stop smilin =] u no that feeling wen u just feel like u neva wana let sum1 go? wel it feels like that lol and i could very easily get used to it =] also saw G last night at a party and i was a bit upset, mainly cz i was drunk lol, and he was super duper gr8 lol. Even tho i will proberly end up wif mr.almost ( which im nt xactly sad abowt!) i must say that if i wasnt, G would b on the top of my list lol. went shopping today wif mr.almost, got paolo nutini's new album, everyone should buy it its wikid and so relaxin lol. Wow its 11 alredy and im totally shattered (late night last nyt lol) so will sign in agen 2mz

ok so now im confuzzled. So theres 'mr.almost' a.k.a the best m8 hu im getting with but cnt quite take that step 2 commiting, but now there's new guy, lets call him 'G'. G iv sorta always lykd nd he is rele gd m8s wif my ex, who btw im stil gd m8z wif, but for sum reason i neva got with him i got wif my now ex lol anyways so now iv bin tlkn 2 him n he wnt tell me hu he likes, sure sign to any girl that any boy that ses that likes them lol, and also he sed its complicated cz its his best m8z ex then sed oopsz iv sed 2 much, meaning i want u 2 no its u i like e.t.c so yer what do i do? also 2 of my m8z from different schools lyk G so dnt no if it wud rele work. hmmm think i'll just hav 2 spend a bit more time with both of them lol. Other than that the day has been boring, did nothing in any of my lessons cz 2 tired from doing my spanaish topic cards last night, which didn't even print out!!! got out of p.e by saying 'i pulled a tendon in my leg'! are all teachers this stoopid? then agen they are p.e teachers so nt exactly known for their amazing minds lol anyways yer so off 2 bed now because my computer nazi of a dad won't let me stay on any longer, which to be honest i think is hypocricy in itself because he wakes me up even if im asleep 2 say gdnyt 2 me even if its about half 12 at night so whats the harm on staying online any longer? perents, living proof of the reason y sex is for fun not for children lol look at the amount of children unhappy with their home life because their parents are overdemanding dictators that could rele do with being brought down a peg or 2, o0o about 99.999% of children i'd say? and im supposed to respect the wonderment of motherhood? i don't think so lol anytways yer so leave me a comment, or not if u'd prefer, whateva floats ur boat and all that. In the mean time i must go and simultaniously flirt through txt to both G and mr.almost lol speakin of which mr almost has just txt me bak now from the row we had earlier which was officially his fault but I ended up apologising for. o its a wonderful life lol nighty night